You know what you've done is very serious and it's evident with what you are saying. When I brought it up in discord you stated that you "could explain" and then immediately said you couldn't explain it. Here you've contradicted yourself by saying it's not bad but it was bad.
I spoke to Herold and Wook and they both said it was very dodgy, when I brought it up with Zab for confirmation, he immediately stated it was pretty obviously CP.
You're not permabanned from the server, but you still posted a very nsfw image in the discord. If you don't get unbanned, I think it's only worthy trying in good few months with constant work on the server, getting to SO if a regiment is willing to have you is likely your best option.